When I am in a dark place, I tend to be quiet, to sort of hide in the shadows.
I do not wish for people to see my tears, to hear my sobs, or to share their advice. I do not want people to expect me to be anything. I do not want people to expect me to be "over it", to be strong for others, to be happy anyway, or to be miserable with pain.
I simply want to be.
Right now, I am in a dark place.
A dark place isn't a bad place. It is simply a place where I must depend on something...Someone...outside myself to give direction because none of my senses are reliable at this point. All I know and all I think mean nothing because in the dark, sounds are magnified, steps are not obvious, and I am guessing...about what lies ahead...about what lies behind...and how the two relate.
The dark is a place to be quiet, to be still, to rest.
And I am resting...from the voices...from the expectations...from needing to know everything...from needing to understand...from needing to have answers.
I am simply being.
And there is a peace in simply being...
...Even when it is in a dark place.